It's a terrible statement but I never let it leave my side. That sickening realization that I'm done with this fight. Moments kneeling on the bedroom floor sickened by the entity I had absorbed no more. I would not let the self-scrutinizing endeavor endure a precipice a monologue questioning my every motive. My disaster stricken heart feeling broken, my emotions quoted spilling out of a broken vase taking the place of what was once your emotion. Diluted with tears, an open book scribbled with fears engraved pools of ink I'm vocally shook; and I'm tired of telling myself that it's gonna change. Taken by the spectacular lie that existence can end. Faulse-hoods predicted my sinners dictated my every decision.
An exit of sorts seemed logical, cause I thought I could silence this breath. But contrary to my mindset, I circumvented my threats to silence the demons singing songs in my head; whispering in my ear, that ending it all is a safe bet.
Comforting me as I try to manipulate my end. Those moments when I decided I couldn't handle this anymore! Pins and needles infected every sensation I had left! Feeling like this love I had once found had been torn open and left broken in the cold -that the seams holding it together ripped open and my flesh tore open with that is I pray that my breathing would stop. And as I held those staining memories, I held on so tightly; remembering what life used to mean. Selfishly ready to embrace the fact that I am weak!
But then I called to you, and I hoped someone would find me; and I found you, and I had hoped someone would call me! Cause I'm listening to these echoes of my own voice leaving damage in the cold, as I feel I have finally grown to the point where I can snap. A point of knowing I could never go back... And it's in the moments I felt most alone. That I told myself no one was there for me; and little did I know, love with sitting right beside me, I just wasn't listening. At this point in my life I don't know many things, but I can promise you this - You are loved completely.
[00:05.87]It's a terrible statement but I never let it leave my side. [00:09.55]That sickening realization that I'm done with this fight. [00:13.77]Moments kneeling on the bedroom floor [00:15.79]sickened by the entity I had absorbed no more. [00:20.35]I would not let the self-scrutinizing endeavor [00:23.37]endure a precipice a monologue questioning my every motive. [00:28.28]My disaster stricken heart feeling broken, [00:31.78]my emotions quoted spilling out of a broken vase [00:36.33]taking the place of what was once your emotion. [00:41.38]Diluted with tears, an open book scribbled with fears [00:44.32]engraved pools of ink I'm vocally shook; [00:49.83]and I'm tired of telling myself that it's gonna change. [00:55.75]Taken by the spectacular lie that existence can end. [01:01.36]Faulse-hoods predicted my sinners dictated my every decision. [01:06.99] [01:07.69]An exit of sorts seemed logical, [01:10.23]cause I thought I could silence this breath. [01:13.73]But contrary to my mindset, [01:17.45]I circumvented my threats to silence [01:20.57]the demons singing songs in my head; [01:24.97]whispering in my ear, that ending it all is a safe bet. [01:30.94] [01:32.40]Comforting me as I try to manipulate my end. [01:37.20]Those moments when I decided I couldn't handle this anymore! [01:41.95]Pins and needles infected every sensation I had left! [01:48.23]Feeling like this love I had once found had been torn open [01:52.48]and left broken in the cold [01:57.94]-that the seams holding it together ripped open [02:01.74]and my flesh tore open with that is I pray that my breathing would stop. [02:09.83]And as I held those staining memories, I held on so tightly; [02:13.98]remembering what life used to mean. [02:17.07]Selfishly ready to embrace the fact that I am weak! [02:28.51] [02:28.66]But then I called to you, and I hoped someone would find me; [02:37.06]and I found you, and I had hoped someone would call me! [02:45.30]Cause I'm listening to these echoes of my own voice [02:48.83]leaving damage in the cold, [02:50.76]as I feel I have finally grown to the point where I can snap. [02:58.24]A point of knowing I could never go back... [03:03.06]And it's in the moments I felt most alone. [03:07.51]That I told myself no one was there for me; [03:13.17]and little did I know, [03:16.01]love with sitting right beside me, I just wasn't listening. [03:23.03]At this point in my life I don't know many things, [03:27.13]but I can promise you this - You are loved completely.
