This is exactly what I wanted All my fans love me Dad is proud of me Momma cries for me Cause she know there ain't sleep in my schedule Having nightmares that I'm the black Heath Ledger Sleep when I'm dead These voices in my head Got me waking up at 4 just so I can write instead And my friends come and ask me if it's worth it I tell them that it better be, I did this **** on purpose The worst is being worthless Now a ***** priceless Bloomingdales coat, I don't have to check the prices But I only go to feel a sense of control Cause I get this **** for free if I wear promotional And I'm not emotional When I do my work I get emotional when I order that dessert Cause she always ate dessert And I deserted her But I refuse to compromise career for a girl Cause this music and this writing and this acting is my soul And if I let it go, there'd be no one left to know Being happy is the goal, but greatness is my vision And all these girls are thinking they compete with my ambition But baby I am different This **** is my life And if you don't believe me, you can never be wife I'm walking in this darkness and I'm tryna find a light And I'd rather die than be average and chances are I might, Because: Things are changing, my life's gone pecans Thirteen cities in the last eight weekends All I know is baby I'm so tired Record on Monday, Tape on Tuesday, I ain't slowing down I don't care what you say **** this health thing, Momma I'm alright
[00:00.55] [00:01.16]This is exactly what I wanted [00:02.46]All my fans love me [00:04.35]Dad is proud of me [00:05.69]Momma cries for me [00:07.03]Cause she know there ain't sleep in my schedule [00:09.84]Having nightmares that I'm the black Heath Ledger [00:12.84]Sleep when I'm dead [00:14.36]These voices in my head [00:15.87]Got me waking up at 4 just so I can write instead [00:18.66]And my friends come and ask me if it's worth it [00:21.32]I tell them that it better be, [00:22.85]I did this **** on purpose [00:24.14]The worst is being worthless [00:25.78]Now a ***** priceless [00:27.30]Bloomingdales coat, I don't have to check the prices [00:29.96]But I only go to feel a sense of control [00:32.68]Cause I get this **** for free if I wear promotional [00:35.64]And I'm not emotional [00:37.43]When I do my work [00:38.96]I get emotional when I order that dessert [00:41.88]Cause she always ate dessert [00:43.42]And I deserted her [00:44.98]But I refuse to compromise career for a girl [00:47.88]Cause this music and this writing and this acting is my soul [00:50.82]And if I let it go, there'd be no one left to know [00:53.48]Being happy is the goal, but greatness is my vision [00:56.97]And all these girls are thinking they compete with my ambition [01:00.01]But baby I am different [01:01.41]This **** is my life [01:02.90]And if you don't believe me, you can never be wife [01:05.59]I'm walking in this darkness and I'm tryna find a light [01:08.94]And I'd rather die than be average and chances are I might, [01:11.94]Because: [01:13.07]Things are changing, my life's gone pecans [01:16.06]Thirteen cities in the last eight weekends [01:18.95]All I know is baby I'm so tired [01:23.69]Record on Monday, [01:26.48]Tape on Tuesday, [01:27.98]I ain't slowing down I don't care what you say [01:30.92]**** this health thing, Momma I'm alright [01:37.11]
