[Intro: Reason & Journalist] Yeah Mama I just killed a man, body is still tremblin', can you feel my hands? Don’t shed no tears mama Look, I said, "Mama I just killed a man. Body is still tremblin', can you feel my hands? Don't shed no tears mama [Interlude: Journalist & Judge] Man convicted in the shooting death of the Milwaukee teenager will be behind walls until he’s at least eighty years old Police said: DeMario Denell Jackson shot into a crowd during a fight and killed a fourteen year old. Our Jonah Kaplan reports from court The court on count 1 is going to impose a life sentence in the Wisconsin state prison system with eligibility to apply for extended supervision in 56 years Yeah I guess I just gotta chill for twenty years 'Til the judge say that it's okay to come out I need an escape and a way to run out People say that they love you but you ain't breakin' me out I'll probably die up in this ************, s**t I've accepted that and now I'm findin’ peace, uh Long nights I’ve been tryna sleep But I can't, so let me write you this apology, this for your girl: Look, I’m sorry, mama I put a bullet in 'em, I took your heart from you I killed your man and now you're forced to be apart from him You daughter walkin', who gon’ catch her when she start runnin'? I was only nineteen, doing foolish things for colors Your tears in the courtroom, I can tell you loved him I thought I was being gangster when I took his life Now I can barely sleep through a night I get it now, **** these colored dreams, s**t I get it now, **** these colored dreams **** these colored dreams **** these colored dreams, s**t I guess I just gotta chill for twenty years S**t, might as well apologize for the rest And to my brother I claimed I love you more than the rest If I really loved you how come I guided you to your death? You was only twelve when I got locked up Pops shook, no role models so the block looks like the only option Should have made you put them Glocks down But instead I showed you how to get it poppin' And you took to it, nah you was never shook to it Even if trouble wasn't around, you would look to it Throwin' up set, you let them know you wasn't no ***** 'til you run into multiple crips You let them ****** know you'll be down for your ****** Thinkin' in your head, "Big bro' will be proud of a *****" I hate to have to be the way for you to go What's even worse, I couldn't make it to your funeral **** them colored dreams S**t, **** these colored dreams **** them colored dreams Look, mama, I know I killed that man Still remember tremblin' when you felt my hand Don't shed no tears mama, uh I know I won't be home for years, mama I know you feel like a failure to all your peers, mama You been a blessing to me I been a curse since birth to you, made s**t worse for you They let me out this second, I wouldn't even search for ya S**t, it only make it harder You care so much that you would kill for me I get your letters and I wonder how you still love me You say you pray every night and you still feel for me S**t and if you could I know you probably would do this bit for me, s**t So what's it been the last time I speak to you I want you to know I love you with everything in me It's insane to me, you share DNA with me We polar opposites I know I failed you mama, wish I could be your accomplishment So as I stand on this chair writing this letter Noose around my neck, the only way I do better is if I leave you now 'Cause you been beaten down from them other things I ain't give you s**t a mother brings, I get it now **** these-- *Choking*
[00:00.000][Intro: Reason & Journalist] [00:03.176]Yeah [00:09.080]Mama I just killed a man, body is still tremblin', can you feel my hands? [00:14.899]Don’t shed no tears mama [00:19.058]Look, I said, "Mama I just killed a man. Body is still tremblin', can you feel my hands? [00:23.475]Don't shed no tears mama [00:24.651][Interlude: Journalist & Judge] [00:24.875]Man convicted in the shooting death of the Milwaukee teenager will be behind walls until he’s at least eighty years old [00:29.810]Police said: DeMario Denell Jackson shot into a crowd during a fight and killed a fourteen year old. Our Jonah Kaplan reports from court [00:35.659]The court on count 1 is going to impose a life sentence in the Wisconsin state prison system with eligibility to apply for extended supervision in 56 years [00:48.891]Yeah [00:50.538]I guess I just gotta chill for twenty years [00:53.811]'Til the judge say that it's okay to come out [00:56.219]I need an escape and a way to run out [00:58.947]People say that they love you but you ain't breakin' me out [01:01.562]I'll probably die up in this ************, s**t [01:05.523]I've accepted that and now I'm findin’ peace, uh [01:07.443]Long nights I’ve been tryna sleep [01:10.379]But I can't, so let me write you this apology, this for your girl: [01:13.882]Look, I’m sorry, mama [01:15.075]I put a bullet in 'em, I took your heart from you [01:17.506]I killed your man and now you're forced to be apart from him [01:20.218]You daughter walkin', who gon’ catch her when she start runnin'? [01:23.162]I was only nineteen, doing foolish things for colors [01:25.946]Your tears in the courtroom, I can tell you loved him [01:28.595]I thought I was being gangster when I took his life [01:30.867]Now I can barely sleep through a night [01:33.090]I get it now, **** these colored dreams, s**t [01:37.643]I get it now, **** these colored dreams [01:43.730]**** these colored dreams [01:49.899]**** these colored dreams, s**t [01:54.443]I guess I just gotta chill for twenty years [01:57.699]S**t, might as well apologize for the rest [02:00.330]And to my brother I claimed I love you more than the rest [02:03.162]If I really loved you how come I guided you to your death? [02:05.890]You was only twelve when I got locked up [02:08.179]Pops shook, no role models so the block looks like the only option [02:12.746]Should have made you put them Glocks down [02:14.451]But instead I showed you how to get it poppin' [02:16.579]And you took to it, nah you was never shook to it [02:19.428]Even if trouble wasn't around, you would look to it [02:22.258]Throwin' up set, you let them know you wasn't no ***** 'til you run into multiple crips [02:27.243]You let them ****** know you'll be down for your ****** [02:29.994]Thinkin' in your head, "Big bro' will be proud of a *****" [02:32.603]I hate to have to be the way for you to go [02:35.052]What's even worse, I couldn't make it to your funeral [02:37.675]**** them colored dreams [02:41.572]S**t, **** these colored dreams [02:45.789]**** them colored dreams [02:48.380]Look, mama, I know I killed that man [02:50.658]Still remember tremblin' when you felt my hand [02:52.883]Don't shed no tears mama, uh [02:55.155]I know I won't be home for years, mama [02:56.979]I know you feel like a failure to all your peers, mama [02:59.756]You been a blessing to me [03:01.019]I been a curse since birth to you, made s**t worse for you [03:03.939]They let me out this second, I wouldn't even search for ya [03:06.714]S**t, it only make it harder [03:08.979]You care so much that you would kill for me [03:11.251]I get your letters and I wonder how you still love me [03:13.579]You say you pray every night and you still feel for me [03:16.244]S**t and if you could I know you probably would do this bit for me, s**t [03:19.564]So what's it been the last time I speak to you [03:21.972]I want you to know I love you with everything in me [03:24.395]It's insane to me, you share DNA with me [03:26.875]We polar opposites [03:28.108]I know I failed you mama, wish I could be your accomplishment [03:30.836]So as I stand on this chair writing this letter [03:33.316]Noose around my neck, the only way I do better is if I leave you now [03:36.852]'Cause you been beaten down from them other things [03:39.044]I ain't give you s**t a mother brings, I get it now [03:41.676]**** these-- [03:42.316]*Choking*
