"Maybe it's that I believe that subconsciously I'm not worthy." "Or deserving of being happy." "But, for a long time I've not wanted to be here." "And there's nothing that I can do, to leave here faster." "I can't kill myself, I can't." "It's not that I don't want to." "It's that I think that I cannot kill myself." "I've tried multiple times, numerous times." "And I cannot die, I won't fxcking die." "Some of me thinks, I live to die, and I want to die." "Because I want the pain to stop." "The medication doesn't help." "The psychiatrists and therapists, they don't help." "None of it helps." "None of it helps."
[00:00.00] [00:02.64]"Maybe it's that I believe that subconsciously I'm not worthy." [00:07.54]"Or deserving of being happy." [00:11.38]"But, for a long time I've not wanted to be here." [00:18.34]"And there's nothing that I can do, to leave here faster." [00:23.11]"I can't kill myself, I can't." [00:28.74]"It's not that I don't want to." [00:31.94]"It's that I think that I cannot kill myself." [00:34.76]"I've tried multiple times, numerous times." [00:38.46]"And I cannot die, I won't fxcking die." [00:47.36]"Some of me thinks, I live to die, and I want to die." [00:54.99]"Because I want the pain to stop." [00:57.51]"The medication doesn't help." [00:59.76]"The psychiatrists and therapists, they don't help." [01:04.01]"None of it helps." [01:06.51]"None of it helps."
