Fresh out of high school glad cause he hated it Everybody in the senior class call him gay but it It never bothered him his name Johnathan Best friend Julie she was cool She went to prom with him The principal said prom was no place for a queer couple If he showed up with a boy then it'd be real trouble Empty threats but what really got to him Is that his boyfriend didn't wanna go to prom with him Boyfriend Roderick kept the secret closeted Scared to come out into this world of zero tolerance Kinda popular played a lot of politics Johnathan was book smart just received a scholarship Off to college wanted Roderick to follow him He see him in the halls But Rod would never acknowledge him Away from school though he was so affectionate John had a good thing no use in upsetting it Besides in college everything would be different Everyone is educated no one would be tripping huh He had it all figured out Plus his parents were excited Just to get him out the house So they bought him a ticket Even bought one for Roderick Said to leave the end of summer They would pay for all of it So excited on his way to work at In-N-Out
End of his shift He drove straight up to Roderick's house He hopped out saw him with his crew He walked right up he was ready to share the news It had been a few days He forgot how much he missed him So excited that he moved in and kissed him Roderick dissed him threw him to the floor He said you faggot What'd you have to do that for
Looked at his homies You know I'm not gay They just shook their heads turned and walked away
**** ****'s wrong with you Now he's screaming at Johnathan What the hell was wrong with him John said Okay it's over Let's be honest then They never knew the real you they not your real friends He drove away and vowed to never speak to him again
It had been a few weeks Before John left for college He thought that they should speak Scared to do it for fear of rejection But either way He knew the world would never accept him
Dear America when you tell gay Americans That they can't serve their country openly
Or marry the person that they love You're telling that to kids too Roderick was seventeen in and out of jail since ten Never knew his father or spent time with any other men He started running in them circles with the hustlers Gangbanging **** slanging Had some loyal customers
Locked him up at a very young age Found religion and it ended all his criminal ways He also found his first boyfriend When he was locked up Came home conflicted
So he really didn't talk much
Felt beginnings of a double life The chaplain back in juve used To tell him that it wasn't right
His bond with God was so strong
That was until he met John
And it felt so perfect But suffering eternal damnation was it worth it
He still had to see him It had been two years He knew that he could never leave him
So he lived in fear of God's wrath The preacher said God loves us all except fags And that made him so mad he started packing his bags Said he'd run away with John until it went all bad
The big incident
John slipped in front of his friends And started kissing him
Now everything was different He shut him out never thought about forgiving him
Until he got that text
John wanted to meet up the day after next
They met at In-N-Out on his dinner break But he was so mad That he couldn't look him in the face Soon as he spoke they both started crying Said he missed him so much he felt like he was dying John said I can't describe how much I missed you
That's when Roderick pulled his pistol
He shot him right between the eyes Then turned it on hisself cause he refused to live a lie
Suicide was against his beliefs But knew it was the only way they'd ever find peace
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