Fourteen years thirty minutes fifteen seconds I've held this grudge
Eleven songs four full journals thoughts of punishment I've expended
Not in contact not a letter such communication telepathic you've been vilified used as fodder you deserve a piece of every record
But who's it hurting now? Who's the one that's stuck? Who's it torturing now with an antique knot in her stomach?
I want to be big and let go of this grudge that's grown old all this time I've not known how to rest this bygone I wanna be soft and resolved clean of slate and released I wanna forgive for the both of us
Like an abandoned house dusty covered furniture still intact If I visit it now will I simply re-live it somehow gratuitous
But who's still aching now? Who's tired of her own voice? Who is it weighing down With no gift from time of said healing
I want to be big and let go of this grudge that's grown old all this time I've not known how to rest this bygone I wanna be soft and resolved clean of slate and released I wanna forgive for the both of us
Maybe as I cut the cord veils will lift from my eyes Maybe as I lay this to rest dead weight off my shoulders will rise
Here I sit much determined ever ill-equipped to draw this curtain how this has entertained validated and has served me well ever the victim
But who's done whining now? Who's ready to put down this load I've carried longer than I had cared to remember
I want to be big and let go of this grudge that's grown old For the life of me I've not known how to rest this bygone I wanna be soft and resolved clean of slate and released I wanna forgive for the both of us I want to be big and let go of this grudge that's grown old For the life of me I've not known how to rest this bygone I wanna be soft and resolved clean of slate and released I wanna forgive for the both of us
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