For myself love being so embarrassingly conditional
For denying myself to somehow make us compatible
For trying to fit a rectangle into a hall
To whom do I owe the biggest apology
No one’s been crueler than I've been to me
I'm sorry to myself
My apologies begin here before everybody else
I'm sorry to myself
For treating me worse than I would anybody else
For blaming myself for your unhappiness
And for my impatience when I was perfect where I was
Ignoring all the signs that I was not ready
And expecting myself to be where you wanted me to be
To whom do I owe the first apology
No one’s been crueler than I've been to me
And I’m sorry to myself
My apologies begin here before everybody else I’m sorry to myself
For treating me worse than I would anybody else
Well I wonder which crime is the biggest
Forgetting you or forgetting myself
Had I heeded the wisdom of the latter
I would've naturally loved the former
For ignoring you my highest voices
For smiling when my strife was all too obvious
For being so disassociated from my body
And not letting go when it would've been the kindest thing
To whom do I owe the biggest apology
No one’s been crueler than I've been to me
And I’m sorry to myself
My apologies begin here before everybody else I’m sorry to myself
For treating me worse than I would anybody else I’m sorry to myself
My apologies begin here before everybody else I’m sorry to myself
For treating me worse than I would anybody else
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