My heart became a drunken runt On the day I sunk in this shunt To tap me clean Of all the wonder And the sorrow I have seen Since I left my home: My home, on the old Milk Lake Where the darkness does fall so fast It feels like some kind of mistake (just like they told you it would; Just like the Tulgeywood) When I came into my land I did not understand: Neither dry rot, nor the burn pile Nor the bark-beetle, nor the dry well Nor the black bear But there is another Who is a little older When I broke my bone He carried me up from the riverside To spend my life In spitting-distance Of the love that I have known I must stay here, in an endless eventide And if you come and see me You will upset the order You cannot come and see me For I set myself apart But when you come and see me In California You cross the border of my heart Well, I have sown untidy furrows Across my soul But I am still a coward Content to see my garden grow So sweet & full Of someone else's flowers But sometimes I can almost feel the power Sometimes I am so in love with you (Like a little clock That trembles on the edge of the hour Only ever calling out "Cuckoo, cuckoo") When I called you You, little one In a bad way Did you love me? Do you spite me? Time will tell if I can be well And rise to meet you rightly While, moving across my land Brandishing themselves Like a burning branch Advance the tallow-colored Walleyed deer Quiet as gondoliers While I wait all night, for you In California Watching the fox pick off my goldfish From their sorry, golden state-- And I am no longer Afraid of anything, save The life that, here, awaits I don't belong to anyone My heart is heavy as an oil drum And I don't want to be alone My heart is yellow as an ear of corn And I have torn my soul apart, from Pulling artlessly with fool commands Some nights I just never go to sleep at all And I stand Shaking in my doorway like a sentinel All alone Bracing like the bow upon a ship And fully abandoning Any thought of anywhere But home My home Sometimes I can almost feel the power And I do love you Is it only timing That has made it such a dark hour Only ever chiming out "Cuckoo, cuckoo"? Cu-ckoo, cu-ckoo, koo, ha-a, ha-hour, ha-a, ha-a My heart, I wear you down, I know Gotta think straight Keep a clean plate; Keep from wearing down If I lose my head Just where am I going to lay it? (For it has half-ruined me To be hanging around Here, among the daphne Blooming out of the big brown; I am native to it, but I'm overgrown I have choked my roots On the earth, as rich as roe Here Down in California.)
[00:17.92]My heart became a drunken runt [00:25.09]On the day I sunk in this shunt [00:32.58]To tap me clean [00:35.77]Of all the wonder [00:39.56]And the sorrow I have seen [00:43.68]Since I left my home: [00:50.34]My home, on the old Milk Lake [00:56.97]Where the darkness does fall so fast [01:02.15]It feels like some kind of mistake [01:07.85](just like they told you it would; [01:16.17]Just like the Tulgeywood) [01:23.33]When I came into my land [01:29.34]I did not understand: [01:37.42]Neither dry rot, nor the burn pile [01:41.14]Nor the bark-beetle, nor the dry well [01:46.31]Nor the black bear [01:52.76]But there is another [01:56.44]Who is a little older [02:00.59]When I broke my bone [02:03.20]He carried me up from the riverside [02:08.72]To spend my life [02:10.89]In spitting-distance [02:12.80]Of the love that I have known [02:17.34]I must stay here, in an endless eventide [02:24.97]And if you come and see me [02:28.74]You will upset the order [02:33.07]You cannot come and see me [02:36.48]For I set myself apart [02:41.30]But when you come and see me [02:45.04]In California [02:49.83]You cross the border of my heart [02:57.84]Well, I have sown untidy furrows [03:01.07]Across my soul [03:02.53]But I am still a coward [03:05.54]Content to see my garden grow [03:08.62]So sweet & full [03:10.48]Of someone else's flowers [03:14.11]But sometimes [03:14.81]I can almost feel the power [03:21.39]Sometimes I am so in love with you [03:29.40](Like a little clock [03:31.75]That trembles on the edge of the hour [03:37.70]Only ever calling out "Cuckoo, cuckoo") [03:45.23]When I called you [03:49.52]You, little one [03:53.11]In a bad way [03:57.06]Did you love me? [03:59.12]Do you spite me? [04:02.09]Time will tell if I can be well [04:12.77]And rise to meet you rightly [04:18.07]While, moving across my land [04:26.12]Brandishing themselves [04:29.15]Like a burning branch [04:33.97]Advance the tallow-colored [04:37.58]Walleyed deer [04:42.45]Quiet as gondoliers [04:48.74]While I wait all night, for you [04:52.51]In California [04:56.42]Watching the fox pick off my goldfish [05:01.22]From their sorry, golden state-- [05:04.59]And I am no longer [05:08.47]Afraid of anything, save [05:14.16]The life that, here, awaits [05:20.56]I don't belong to anyone [05:23.48]My heart is heavy as an oil drum [05:28.47]And I don't want to be alone [05:31.55]My heart is yellow as an ear of corn [05:36.58]And I have torn my soul apart, from [05:40.16]Pulling artlessly with fool commands [05:44.21]Some nights [05:45.53]I just never go to sleep at all [05:49.05]And I stand [05:52.30]Shaking in my doorway like a sentinel [05:56.35]All alone [06:00.44]Bracing like the bow upon a ship [06:04.07]And fully abandoning [06:07.95]Any thought of anywhere [06:10.77]But home [06:12.87]My home [06:15.81]Sometimes I can almost feel the power [06:22.97]And I do love you [06:30.38]Is it only timing [06:32.21]That has made it such a dark hour [06:37.39]Only ever chiming out [06:39.91]"Cuckoo, cuckoo"? [06:46.04]Cu-ckoo, cu-ckoo, koo, ha-a, ha-hour, ha-a, ha-a [07:13.99]My heart, I wear you down, I know [07:24.65]Gotta think straight [07:26.87]Keep a clean plate; [07:30.10]Keep from wearing down [07:34.04]If I lose my head [07:40.79]Just where am I going to lay it? [07:45.70](For it has half-ruined me [07:48.67]To be hanging around [07:51.99]Here, among the daphne [07:54.47]Blooming out of the big brown; [07:57.79]I am native to it, but I'm overgrown [08:05.94]I have choked my roots [08:09.22]On the earth, as rich as roe [08:13.15]Here Down in California.)
