Yeah this just my life Front to back top to bottom Everything's changing around me These days don't feel the same We all lost faith and lost family Why must we play this game Lord have mercy on me I've been a sinning man Pull out my wings jump off the bridge and crash in a plane If I never land Know I never die We live forever in my mind And I sanctify We live forever still that life There's a lot going on but I stick to the ones I love I never claimed to be a perfect man but name a great man who was Consequences of my actions in the past years had me stressing out It was like may I just moved to l a I was tryna figure it out Medication for depression that I cut cold turkey had the kid manic In an episode out in hollywood wilding out like nick cannon Railing adderall pills out a dollar bill on the bathroom floor Clean the whole mess up with my nose What the ****** I need a vacuum for New york city on my birthday june 6 th 2014 I had that first meeting with hov plus I brought out the whole team I drank that whole bottle of d'usse ty ty gave me that night When we left the club after rap genius house me And shorty got into a fight She came out the room swingin' hit me in the jaw I was really tryna fend her off But I ended up in the closet with my hands around her neck I was tripping dawg Too proud to apologize or empathize I blamed it all on her Saying that she hit me first even though she was the one hurt I was really just reflecting all the hurt That I was feeling from the band's rejection When kids these days split that ******t felt like a c-section And my infidelity and jealousy with natalie on top of the amphetamines And the ecstasy had me tryna drown face down in the chesapeake The next month I dropped down on my luck and had europe going nuts But I couldn't even appreciate it at the time I was going through too much Now I had to leverage million dollar label deals on the table for my records In ibiza eating paella on the roof tryna choose over breakfast Hov wasn't with the bidding war but I knew the roc just felt right When I saw kanye at wireless without t-pain still a good life Felt so close when mr hudson introduced me to him backstage He prolly don't even remember that ******t like a ****** off backpage But at that stage I was ready to swing for the fence like a batting cage At the same time I was winding down a low point in my addict phase The adderall started wearing off and I went into a deep writer's block All over a song that I couldn't finish That I wrote about signin' to the roc Isn't that ironic I was feeling so psychotic With the whole world excited for me and my idol saying I got it ******t got bad out in l a So I moved back home to my mom's ba******t Linked up with smoko and papi beatz and took it back to basics Then I wrote rage that was me screaming out through the pain And u mad addressing my relation******p with natalie it was too bad The violence and the lies slipped suicide into my mental health I did acid in the studio one day and almost killed myself As I started to fall apart certain stars started to align Oh mys came to chicago in january at the perfect time He said kanye was working on an album And uzi played him one of our songs He was tryna fly me out ****** it was goin' down like the dow jones Pulled up to westlake first day I was there I recorded wolves I knew I was the one like neo meeting with the oracle But I had to get a handle 'fore the door was pulled Crawled out on snl All the ******s hating on me back home lookin' at me like fml A lot of people coming out the wood like let's work tryna network All the pressure making my head hurt the molly wouldn't let the meds work At this time it's like feb 1 st to the 15 th And I'm still addicted Frustrated writing ******t for ye tryna visualize someone else's vision Then he laid that verse on u mad and we made the ******t the single Ye and hov getting into it over me tryna do a joint venture And good music still fam but it's that roc boy savemoney life Took the bus out on the road for the traffic tour did a hundred nights Cleaned out my closet I got rid of all of my demons If you learn one thing from my journey ****** it's don't stop believing When this ******t got so suffocating I could barely even keep breathing Wrote my wrongs all in this song now I'd like to welcome y'all to my season ****** I'm gone Know I never die We live forever in my mind And I sanctify We live forever still that life
[00:02.74]Yeah this just my life [00:09.33]Front to back top to bottom [00:14.77]Everything's changing around me [00:19.08]These days don't feel the same [00:22.50]We all lost faith and lost family [00:25.60]Why must we play this game [00:29.64]Lord have mercy on me [00:33.02]I've been a sinning man [00:37.27]Pull out my wings jump off the bridge and crash in a plane [00:40.63]If I never land [00:42.54]Know I never die [00:49.04]We live forever in my mind [00:56.24]And I sanctify [01:03.52]We live forever still that life [01:11.41]There's a lot going on but I stick to the ones I love [01:14.69]I never claimed to be a perfect man but name a great man who was [01:18.23]Consequences of my actions in the past years had me stressing out [01:21.84]It was like may I just moved to l a [01:24.19]I was tryna figure it out [01:25.37]Medication for depression that I cut cold turkey had the kid manic [01:28.96]In an episode out in hollywood wilding out like nick cannon [01:32.49]Railing adderall pills out a dollar bill on the bathroom floor [01:35.93]Clean the whole mess up with my nose [01:37.75]What the ****** I need a vacuum for [01:39.39]New york city on my birthday june 6 th 2014 [01:42.61]I had that first meeting with hov plus I brought out the whole team [01:46.11]I drank that whole bottle of d'usse ty ty gave me that night [01:49.63]When we left the club after rap genius house me [01:52.37]And shorty got into a fight [01:53.49]She came out the room swingin' hit me in the jaw [01:55.56]I was really tryna fend her off [01:57.40]But I ended up in the closet with my hands around her neck [01:59.91]I was tripping dawg [02:01.00]Too proud to apologize or empathize I blamed it all on her [02:04.49]Saying that she hit me first even though she was the one hurt [02:08.10]I was really just reflecting all the hurt [02:09.96]That I was feeling from the band's rejection [02:11.67]When kids these days split that ******t felt like a c-section [02:15.22]And my infidelity and jealousy with natalie on top of the amphetamines [02:18.50]And the ecstasy had me tryna drown face down in the chesapeake [02:22.29]The next month I dropped down on my luck and had europe going nuts [02:25.83]But I couldn't even appreciate it at the time I was going through too much [02:29.28]Now I had to leverage million dollar label deals on the table for my records [02:32.78]In ibiza eating paella on the roof tryna choose over breakfast [02:36.61]Hov wasn't with the bidding war but I knew the roc just felt right [02:39.81]When I saw kanye at wireless without t-pain still a good life [02:43.35]Felt so close when mr hudson introduced me to him backstage [02:47.07]He prolly don't even remember that ******t like a ****** off backpage [02:50.66]But at that stage [02:51.44]I was ready to swing for the fence like a batting cage [02:54.07]At the same time I was winding down a low point in my addict phase [02:57.55]The adderall started wearing off and I went into a deep writer's block [03:01.18]All over a song that I couldn't finish [03:03.17]That I wrote about signin' to the roc [03:04.92]Isn't that ironic I was feeling so psychotic [03:07.95]With the whole world excited for me and my idol saying I got it [03:11.51]******t got bad out in l a [03:12.73]So I moved back home to my mom's ba******t [03:15.05]Linked up with smoko and papi beatz and took it back to basics [03:18.89]Then I wrote rage that was me screaming out through the pain [03:22.46]And u mad addressing my relation******p with natalie it was too bad [03:25.83]The violence and the lies slipped suicide into my mental health [03:29.38]I did acid in the studio one day and almost killed myself [03:33.09]As I started to fall apart certain stars started to align [03:36.48]Oh mys came to chicago in january at the perfect time [03:40.02]He said kanye was working on an album [03:42.07]And uzi played him one of our songs [03:43.72]He was tryna fly me out ****** it was goin' down like the dow jones [03:47.18]Pulled up to westlake first day I was there I recorded wolves [03:50.80]I knew I was the one like neo meeting with the oracle [03:54.50]But I had to get a handle 'fore the door was pulled [03:56.61]Crawled out on snl [03:58.32]All the ******s hating on me back home lookin' at me like fml [04:02.06]A lot of people coming out the wood like let's work tryna network [04:05.34]All the pressure making my head hurt the molly wouldn't let the meds work [04:08.81]At this time it's like feb 1 st to the 15 th [04:10.70]And I'm still addicted [04:12.65]Frustrated writing ******t for ye tryna visualize someone else's vision [04:16.19]Then he laid that verse on u mad and we made the ******t the single [04:19.73]Ye and hov getting into it over me tryna do a joint venture [04:23.20]And good music still fam but it's that roc boy savemoney life [04:26.64]Took the bus out on the road for the traffic tour did a hundred nights [04:30.10]Cleaned out my closet I got rid of all of my demons [04:33.38]If you learn one thing from my journey ****** it's don't stop believing [04:37.02]When this ******t got so suffocating I could barely even keep breathing [04:40.64]Wrote my wrongs all in this song now [04:42.49]I'd like to welcome y'all to my season [04:44.18]****** I'm gone [04:58.89]Know I never die [05:05.06]We live forever in my mind [05:12.64]And I sanctify [05:19.12]We live forever still that life
