[00:00.000] 作词 : Julien Baker/Mackenzie Scott
[00:00.118] 作曲 : Julien Baker/Mackenzie Scott
[00:00.236]Left Georgia for Tennessee when I was eighteen
[00:04.304]Met a girl named Tuesday who shined her light on me
[00:07.787]She was 5'9 with a storm in her eyes
[00:11.432]And of all the shoulders on which she could've cried, she picked mine
[00:17.783]She picked mine
[00:22.907]Now, I wish that I hadn't stepped down and lied
[00:29.935]When I acted like it was nothing to me
[00:37.126]And if I could only go back in time
[00:44.281]I'd rewrite our whole story
[00:51.833]Well, her mama caught wind that her daughter's friend
[00:55.952]Might be of the wrong persuasion
[00:59.009]Next thing I know, her mama's callin', tellin' her daughter
[01:03.026]Just the thought of it, it made her sick over the toilet
[01:07.805]Instead of backin' me up, Tuesday melted right down
[01:12.001]Asked me to write her mother and say sorry for the confusion
[01:16.238]That, of course, there'd been no sin
[01:18.837]And to emphasize how much I loved Jesus and men
[01:30.432]How I wish that I hadn't stepped down and lied
[01:37.531]When I acted like it was nothing to me
[01:44.395]'Cause that night, for the first time, I took a knife
[01:51.862]To the paper-thin skin on my arms
[01:58.665]Oh my Lord, oh my Christ, is this the end?
[02:05.946]I heard myself cry from the tile
[02:13.131]The darkness of eternal night started closin' in
[02:20.222]And I thought, "Surely, no future exists"
[02:28.365]Tuesday, now I hardly think of you
[02:31.869]But when I do, I only think of shame
[02:35.026]And, girl, I tell ya, if I could do it again
[02:39.079]I sure as hell wouldn't do it the same
[02:45.087]No, I cannot believe that I stepped down and lied
[02:52.327]I should have told you I loved you
[02:59.382]And now I know that your shame was not mine
[03:06.396]And I am perfect in my Lord's eyes
[03:14.338]For a decade, I let you live in my head
[03:18.036]But with this exorcism, I put our story to bed
[03:21.317]And one more thing, if you ever hear this song
[03:25.264]Tell your mama she can go suck an egg