[00:00.000] 作词 : J Thompson/LexNour/Curtis Martin
[00:00.122] 作曲 : J Thompson/LexNour/Curtis Martin
[00:00.245]And i know you think you know me
[00:02.861]But you don’t know where i’ve been
[00:04.863]I’m a mess
[00:06.373]What's happiness when you just fxxk it up again?
[00:09.878]I might lose my way
[00:12.644]I might not come back
[00:15.648]I know you try to stay to help
[00:19.409]But go and save yourself
[00:21.161]This ain’t a way to be livin', i get it
[00:23.412]Didn’t know bad it was until you actually said it
[00:26.171]Breakin' down but tellin' everyone i’m fine
[00:28.428]I know i promised I would talk before i crossed that line again but didn’t
[00:31.194]Yeah, i guess that's just the way my head works
[00:33.696]Open up another couple scars before you mend yours
[00:36.202]I don't learn from watching others crash, i gotta wreck first
[00:38.209]'cause i don't think that love is really love until you get hurt, yeah
[00:41.462]And i know what you think
[00:43.213]Said it's hard to love me when i don't love myself and i'm on the brink
[00:45.972]Of trading in this sobriety for a fxxking drink
[00:49.729]And i don’t wanna talk about it till we’re bout to sink, yeah
[00:51.480]Maybe i just need a day off
[00:53.485]Maybe i’m just more fxxking comfortable in the chaos
[00:56.745]You say you love me, so you stay on
[00:58.996]Invested all your time and wonder when it’s gonna pay off, huh?
[01:01.499]And i know you think you know me
[01:03.254]But you don’t know where i’ve been
[01:06.012]I’m a mess, what's happiness
[01:07.763]When you just f*ck it up again?
[01:10.768]I might lose my way
[01:13.529]I might not come back
[01:16.796]I know you try to stay to help
[01:19.812]But go and save yourself
[01:22.062]So afraid of the failure that now i'm barely livin'
[01:24.316]Spent a lifetime of working with nothin' left to give it
[01:26.824]Lookin' back at the things we been through and feel i miss it
[01:29.330]I been running forever, i don’t know how you didn’t
[01:31.833]When you’re sitting right next to me, don’t know where i go
[01:34.339]I’m in my head with these songs and pick apart every note
[01:37.097]These insecurities killing me but i never show
[01:39.599]The things i’m thinking are probably worse than you’ll ever know
[01:42.104]Yeah, we been feeling like we can’t move
[01:44.610]Same house, same walls, but a different view
[01:47.614]Spending time avoiding this inconvenient truth
[01:49.617]I got some problems and i’m sick of trying to blame you
[01:57.184]'cause i feel, like i been, on my own, in my head
[02:02.196]The light goes, and i see you fall when standing beside me
[02:06.659]And every night i lie awake
[02:07.484]Tryin' to fight but every day, i'm feeling less, feeling less like me
[02:12.244]Still waiting for me to open up
[02:14.750]She ain't cheating, just fantasizing bout who i was
[02:17.257]Fell in love with this image that i portray, but know it ain't a lie
[02:19.509]It's who i want to be at the end of the day
[02:23.315]I know the feelings and the thoughts will keep me down
[02:24.818]Depression and anxiety, hanging inside the clouds
[02:27.076]No matter where i go, they keep following me around
[02:29.327]And you think that one day, i can make it out
[02:31.831]And i know you think you know me
[02:34.339]But you don’t know where i’ve been
[02:36.844]I’m a mess, what's happiness
[02:39.348]When you just fxxk it up again?
[02:41.855]I might lose my way
[02:44.360]I might not come back
[02:48.112]I know you try to stay to help
[02:50.617]But go and save yourself