[00:13.64]They want something real, something to feel
[00:16.09]Here go the deal, y'all gotta chill
[00:18.49]You all on my neck, you all in my grill
[00:20.71]Like this ain't enough
[00:21.71]My ***** you suck, go back to the crib
[00:24.41]Back to the way that you rap when you struggle so bad
[00:26.50]Had a gun to your head on the bridge
[00:27.88]But what about you?
[00:28.79]How you still ain't changed?
[00:30.22]Throwing dirt on my name as soon as I grow
[00:32.21]You hate me the most
[00:33.58]Wish that I was the same, the same as you are
[00:35.91]Down in the dumps
[00:37.18]Down on my luck, doubt on myself
[00:39.52]Broke as a joke, testing my health
[00:42.08]Running thru bottles and dwelling my sorrows
[00:43.84]With women around me who **** me to leave
[00:45.55]Crushing these pills doing line after line lace the joint
[00:47.81]With the coke while you sipping' codeine
[00:49.11]Abusing the people you love 'cause you scared to yourself
[00:51.18]And what you might eventually be
[00:52.95]You just give up 'cause the failure occurring too much,
[00:54.99]Let me tell you that's never been me
[00:56.36]I hit the bottle with pencils
[00:57.56]And motival visuals the coke of the kid with the stand
[00:59.85]I dropped a song
[01:00.58]And it's chop these people on truth
[01:01.88]But it seems like sometimes you don't care
[01:03.49]I keep on going don't worry 'bout tainted opinions,
[01:05.57]The others they ain't there
[01:06.90]I keep it real even if It gets different,
[01:08.51]I spit how I'm living and keep them aware
[01:10.51]Know you been trippin, figures
[01:13.22]That’s why you got me sippin liquor
[01:16.34]Change is callin' but you hung up
[01:19.06]On the come up
[01:20.28]You throw me shade, I pull the sun up
[01:22.53]And know it’s all love
[01:23.87]Never been blurry vision
[01:27.08]Never been your decision
[01:31.02]Change is callin' but you hung up
[01:33.09]On the come up
[01:34.46]You throw me shade, I pull the sun up
[01:36.65]And know it’s all love
[01:38.06]Yeah, you want something real, til I say how I feel
[01:41.65]It's not my fault when I pour out my thoughts
[01:43.70]It puts you all in the feels
[01:45.10]Maybe I'm needing to chill, maybe I'm needing a pill
[01:47.67]Maybe I'm needing her still, maybe I'm needing a hill
[01:50.39]Maybe I'm depending on love, ****
[01:52.18]Dependency kills
[01:53.18]Wondering why I am living, when I was inside of the kitchen
[01:56.67]Well I sit down gripping that knife, uh
[01:58.80]Wondering, thinking 'bout life, uh
[02:00.62]I almost made the most selfish decision
[02:02.30]Clenching my neck ****, I wanted to slit it
[02:04.18]All of the pain, all the pain I was feeling
[02:05.89]I wanted to cut, but thank god that I didn't
[02:07.81]And I realised that my life is bigger than me
[02:09.46]Got so many people depending on me
[02:11.12]My hidden depression was sickening me
[02:12.87]But I didn't end it 'cause this isn't me
[02:14.78]Nah, this isn't me
[02:15.76]I am stronger than I think, I wear my heart on my sleeve
[02:18.39]I'm not afraid of exposure, I show my emotion
[02:20.51]So when I am flowing they know that it's me
[02:22.34]If they had it there right now I would plummet
[02:24.11]I wouldn't peak or ever reach the summit
[02:25.92]I would feel defeated, leave here with nothing
[02:27.85]I would be drunk sipping' Bourbon and clubbin'
[02:29.51]I would be sick, feeling pain in my stomach
[02:31.26]I would be following them like a puppet
[02:33.00]I would've quit my dreams and never done it
[02:35.19]Know you been trippin, figures
[02:38.58]That’s why you got me sippin liquor
[02:42.00]Change is callin' but you hung up
[02:44.30]On the come up
[02:45.54]You throw me shade, I pull the sun up
[02:47.87]And know it’s all love
[02:49.21]Never been blurry vision
[02:52.59]Never been your decision
[02:56.22]Change is callin' but you hung up
[02:58.34]On the come up
[02:59.74]You throw me shade, I pull the sun up
[03:02.06]And know it’s all love
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