[00:10.42]Tears still rolling down my face
[00:12.51]Simple fact it being Father's Day
[00:14.85]My confidence was confiscated
[00:16.64]More confrontations, shortened patience
[00:19.04]I'm aggravated, agitated
[00:21.38]Hate to say this, I ain't been a father lately
[00:23.81]And I feel like I been a screw up
[00:26.20]But then everybody needs to tune up
[00:28.39]Self observation, conversations
[00:30.83]Choices made, I'm tryna find some confirmation
[00:33.29]Damn, how the **** did I get here though?
[00:35.48]My own pops wasn't round to see his kids grow
[00:37.82]And I be damned if I follow where his foots go
[00:40.16]My baby mom took my kids about a year ago
[00:42.61]I can't lie, **** is hard, she don't get it though
[00:44.90]Every day the kids asking where their daddy go
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[00:48.07]****, still praying for a better way
[00:49.91]I visualise good times when I meditate
[00:52.20]To be alone on my own on this Father's Day
[00:54.65]Tears still rolling down my face
[00:56.54]To God I pray
[00:57.88]To each his own, I can't condone
[00:59.82]I compensate, the **** relates
[01:01.82]And freeze the mind of my mistakes
[01:03.31]I smoke and drink, I contemplate
[01:05.11]I start to think, I hate my baby mama
[01:07.10]But that ain't true, but that ain't true
[01:09.14]Wear my shoes, I bet you couldn't fit in 'em if you tried to
[01:12.12]I'm sick of lies, I'm tired of what I'm going through
[01:14.21]It all starts with your kids not knowing you
[01:16.70]Am I putting too much time in this vocal booth?
[01:19.29]Am I spending too much time with my new boo?
[01:21.33]Or do you do it for your fam or the new coupe?
[01:23.72]Holidays of change ain't what I'm used to
[01:26.01]I was tryna refrain from doing court moves
[01:28.60]Never, ever a fan of doing court rooms
[01:30.89]Too many regrets, it's all in my head
[01:32.93]It's really not true cause all that I do was for my kids, damn
[01:35.62]Living on edge, I'm praying for help
[01:37.71]It's Father's Day and I'm feeling like I hate myself
[01:40.05]I hate this fame and sometimes, I hate this game
[01:42.09]But it's gon' change, yeah yeah, this **** gon' change
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[01:46.43]Happy Father's Day
[01:48.57]Hate it had to be this way
[01:51.21]Happy Father's Day
[01:53.15]I hate it had to be this way
[01:58.18]My heart beats this way
[02:00.32]That why my heart beats this way
[02:02.66]I hate it had to be this way
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[02:04.95]As the tears rolling down my eyes
[02:06.45]One day, wonder if my girl think it's kinda weaker to cry
[02:08.78]Baby mom sending threats, tryna seek and divide
[02:11.07]Add up too, hell rude cause I'm happy inside
[02:13.46]Met a queen, Lord knows he just give me a sign
[02:15.95]Who gon' grab my hand? Who gon' wipe my tears?
[02:18.35]She gon' pat me on the back like it's alright, my dear
[02:20.64]Still wishing every day I had my grandma here
[02:23.13]But hey, that's the way that life is though
[02:25.32]We all living just to die, the way this script goes
[02:27.75]****, no answers, screaming **** cancer
[02:30.44]Staring at the pick of my son, he so handsome
[02:32.88]First born, my baby girl, it's so special
[02:35.22]FaceTime to see 'em smile and say I love 'em
[02:37.61]First Father's Day alone, I had to suffer
[02:39.90]Still counting blessings cause they ain't had to struggle, Lord
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[02:43.73]Happy Father's Day
[02:45.22]Hate it had to be this way
[02:47.81]Happy Father's Day
[02:50.25]I hate it had to be this way
[02:55.28]My heart beats this way
[02:57.46]That why my heart beats this way
[02:59.75]I hate it had to be this way
[03:01.05]
[03:02.19]See a ***** going through
[03:03.79]Make a change what I'm going through
[03:05.29]Sometimes people never understand 'til it all hits the fan
[03:08.37]Should have listened to 'em, warned you
[03:10.12]But that's life and we never get to live it twice
[03:12.21]I understand not many of us ever get it right
[03:14.69]But hopefully you kinda close before you see the light
[03:17.03]The realest **** I ever wrote in my whole life
[03:19.37]Yeah, and to my son and my beautiful daughter
[03:22.56]
[03:22.91]I'm sorry I wasn't better for you and your brother
[03:25.00]That bad blood in between me and your mother
[03:27.38]We both did things back and forth to each other
[03:29.67]I apologise, go and dry your eyes
[03:31.66]There's gon' come a time when it's all aligned
[03:33.55]Daddy's signing you them lullaby's
[03:34.81]Me and baby boy, throwing up the high five
[03:37.25]And baby girl probably passing me the pompoms
[03:39.79]Not mine but on God's time
[03:41.73]Still wishing y'all was close cause I know the way that time flies
[03:44.46]On this day I was really in my feelings
[03:46.50]Roll another blunt cause I been trying not to feel it
[03:48.95]Tears falling down on the pad on what I've written
[03:51.19]Part of me just gotta forgive, my daddy missing
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[03:55.33]Cause I am nothing like him
[03:56.73]I'm so unlike you, going through it like them
[03:59.02]****, growing up right in front of your eyes
[04:01.26]Far from the perfect that we seeking to find
[04:03.75]There's a beauty in the struggle when you growing inside
[04:05.89]All my insecurities just on a platter besides
[04:10.32]I'm alive, I'm alive
[04:15.15]And besides, ****, I'm alive
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[04:19.49]Happy Father's Day
[04:21.48]Hate it had to be this way
[04:23.72]Happy Father's Day
[04:26.11]I hate it had to be this way
[04:31.09]My heart beats this way
[04:33.23]That why my heart beats this way
[04:36.31]Love y'all