[00:01.032][Intro: Ameer Vann]
[00:01.569]I ain't the same ***** that I once was
[00:04.209]I lost my ******* mind and then I fell in love
[00:07.529]I did a bunch of drugs because I couldn't sleep
[00:10.466]I lost a couple months, I chipped my ******* teeth
[00:13.937]And there's a couple women, and they know some things
[00:16.696]About lies that I done told and **** that I done said
[00:20.407]And ****** that I robbed, so I'm real paranoid
[00:23.744]I have voices in my head
[00:26.937][Verse 1: Merlyn Wood]
[00:27.465]Hi, my name is Merlyn
[00:28.287]I just applied for food stamps
[00:29.503]I just moved to California, with my boy band
[00:32.664]Dropped out of a good school
[00:34.256]Hippies in my commune
[00:35.632]I left 'fore the rent was due
[00:37.338]Used to want a briefcase
[00:39.432]And a short commute
[00:40.848]Used to wanna sell coke
[00:42.056]And whip an Audi Coupe crazy if I did that
[00:45.338]Wouldn't be talking to you
[00:47.088]Walking through the pit falls
[00:48.888]Of a college student
[00:50.376]Crazy how you get them letters
[00:52.312]And that make you feel accepted 'til you walking 'round the campus and you the only African
[00:57.669]Nobody with passion just cats that take direction well
[01:00.933]Take acid trips to find themselves
[01:03.276]Well...
[01:04.069][Hook: Kevin Abstract]
[01:04.423]I gotta get better at being me
[01:09.429](Being who I am)
[01:10.822]I gotta get better at everything
[01:15.654](Being who I am)
[01:18.093]I just want a friend that I can hang out with
[01:21.205](Being who I am)
[01:24.687]Someone I can sit around, lay on my couch with
[01:28.303](Being who I am)
[01:29.673][Verse 2: Kevin Abstract]
[01:30.842]Ever since I moved out I've been broke
[01:37.321]Ever since I grew up I've been ugly
[01:42.984]Ooh, and I need get me some dollar
[01:45.537]Dollar, dollar bills y'all
[01:49.226]Ever since I left my momma house I've been mad as hell at the world
[01:55.561]Sometimes you don't gotta rhyme when you feel it
[02:01.920]Sometimes I barely ever feel a ******* thing
[02:08.162]Sometimes I wish that my ******* phone would ******* ring
[02:11.950]And go off, and wake a ***** up
[02:14.801]I'm used to being sad
[02:16.305]And I'm used to being down
[02:17.851]I'm used to being used
[02:19.410]I miss my boy being around
[02:21.266][Hook: Kevin Abstract]
[02:21.594]I gotta get better at being me
[02:26.099](Being who I am)
[02:27.626]I gotta get better at everything
[02:32.219](Being who I am)
[02:34.034]I just want a friend that I can hang out with
[02:38.833](Being who I am)
[02:40.209]Someone I can sit around, lay on my couch with
[02:45.282](Being who I am)
[02:46.905][Bridge: Matt Champion]
[02:47.329]Droppin' all I got on this one day
[02:50.130]I just wanna be somebody someday
[02:53.001]Droppin' all I got on this one way
[02:56.320]I just wanna be somebody someday
[02:59.473]Droppin' all I got on this one day
[03:02.514]I just wanna be somebody someday
[03:05.696]Droppin' all I got on this one way
[03:08.951]I just wanna be somebody someday
[03:11.626][Hook: Kevin Abstract]
[03:12.497]I gotta get better at being me
[03:17.169](Being who I am)
[03:18.673]I gotta get better at everything
[03:23.442](Being who I am)
[03:26.218]I just want a friend that I can hang out with
[03:30.129](Being who I am)
[03:32.330]Someone I can sit around, lay on my couch with
[03:36.401](Being who I am)
[03:37.951][Outro: Dom McLennon]
[03:38.256]I'm trying to look for motivation of smaller things
[03:41.001]But baby steps to my atonement when I foster dreams
[03:44.041]I've been told I'm too transparent with my thoughts sometimes
[03:47.121]So I wrote songs until they pass, and I can fall in line
[03:50.265]I fell apart the moment that you thought you found yourself
[03:53.626]'Cause I knew at that point I couldn't be in the equation anymore
[03:57.235]But moving on with open, broken hearts
[03:59.297]Will show you everything you need to see about yourself to start moving forward
[04:03.905]So many things I wanna say that I'm not sure need to be known but everybody swears they ******* know me
[04:10.641]So why, don't I lay every card I'm holding on the table
[04:14.529]At that point I wonder what they'd show me
[04:17.146]I almost lost my father
[04:19.289]Still surreal for me to think about
[04:22.594]Considering how many of my friends have lost theirs
[04:24.347]I never know if what I'm saying is the right thing
[04:26.931]If not, I'm ready more than ever for the crosshairs
[04:30.188]It's all fair when it's not you
[04:32.290]Some people have angels
[04:33.962]What if only shadows follow you?
[04:35.723]And all the ghosts inside that seem to hollow you
[04:37.882]The branches of the weeping willow start to swallow you
[04:40.731]And then you realize you're exactly where you're supposed to be
[04:44.346]The horizon clears
[04:47.602]You wipe the tears
[04:51.939]And all the skeletons are ready for your story
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