[00:22.850]Oftentimes I say shits that I don't really mean
[00:25.590]Shut my eyes even though I know I won't see
[00:28.330]Corrupt myself of soul because I lost in a breeze
[00:30.910]Offer my jests for a little bit of peace
[00:33.640]Heartfelt can't work something can't explain
[00:36.230]Put a bullet in my brain where my knowledge unite
[00:39.220]You don't want to love me till that '***** I'm insane!'
[00:41.960]Things ain't the same and you probably stay that way
[00:44.790]Heart left in pieces got my fingers on the shots
[00:47.270]you can fine me in the gramarye but blame cards
[00:49.450]Just a cheap puzzle with a bunch of missing parts
[00:52.790]Can't complain me cause I've been incomplete from the start
[00:55.870]Always ain't shits cause over things the possibility is near reinsurance
[00:59.160]All this time it's killing me
[01:05.790]I said I'm doing fine that's not the truth
[01:08.290]Can't handle life and I'm not in a boot
[01:11.080]You say you got a gun but I know you won't shoot
[01:14.170]You say they love me but I know that ain't the truth
[01:16.610]You believe it that god won't ever show his face
[01:19.080]He might love you all but I know I'm the one he hates
[01:21.970]Tell me how many prayers does it ******* take
[01:24.500]For your god to hear me and give me a ******* break
[01:27.640]After a while you stop giving a ****
[01:30.470]Why should I care when I'm never enough
[01:33.200]After a while you stop giving a ****
[01:35.920]Why should I care when I'm never enough
[01:38.660]And the doctor asked me to come in
[01:42.300]And I know something's wrong because even the doctor is crying
[01:47.050]And doctor don't cry.and he said that we've done all we can,there's nothing else for us to do
[01:58.080]And I said how much...time does she have,and he said at the most...at the most...
[02:07.100]6 meds,6 weeks,I'm sorry. And I should plan for that
[02:14.440]And I plague on how the hell to plan for that
[02:16.970]I have a plan to buy her her first bicycle
[02:21.170]I have a plan to walk her to school
[02:23.500]I have a plan to take pictures of her on her prom
[02:28.070]I have a plan to walk her down the isle to get married
[02:31.960]How am I gonna plan to buy her a dress to be buried in?
[02:36.360]And I'm trying to keep it to Kevin
[02:38.280]Cause I'm the man,and I'm the...the man in the house
[02:41.820]And I'm the one he cry on when it's coming.
[02:43.900]And I'm trying to tell my wife,tell myself,Tony.
[02:46.280]I'm trying to beg the world,jus...jus...just give me chance
[02:51.440]Jus...jus...just give me chance,jus..jus..just let me take a breath
[02:54.670]Just stop just for a minute
[02:55.990]I want to call my parents...and tell them what do I do?
[02:59.180]I don't know what to do,I'm a grown man,and I don't know what to do.
[03:06.580]And a man,a voice in me comes up like...like they all from training day
[03:10.480]'Man up!*****!you think you're the only one losing kids today?
[03:21.970]25 kids walked in here with cancer and only 5 walking out!
[03:27.140]This ain't no sitcom,it don't wrap up all nights' entirely 30 minutes
[03:32.400]This is life!Welcome to the real world!' And he's right.
[03:43.080]So I bucked up,because that's what I'm supposed to do.