[00:00.51]Fresh out of high school  glad cause he hated it
[00:03.25]Everybody in the senior class call him gay but it
[00:06.44]It never bothered him  his name Johnathan
[00:09.25]Best friend Julie  she was cool
[00:10.85]She went to prom with him
[00:12.18]The principal said prom was no place for a queer couple
[00:15.16]If he showed up with a boy then it'd be real trouble
[00:18.48]Empty threats  but what really got to him
[00:20.93]Is that his boyfriend didn't wanna go to prom with him
[00:24.00]Boyfriend Roderick  kept the secret closeted
[00:26.84]Scared to come out into this world of zero tolerance
[00:29.95]Kinda popular  played a lot of politics
[00:32.87]Johnathan was book smart  just received a scholarship
[00:36.06]Off to college  wanted Roderick to follow him
[00:38.84]He see him in the halls
[00:40.00]But Rod would never acknowledge him
[00:41.83]Away from school though  he was so affectionate
[00:44.63]John had a good thing  no use in upsetting it
[00:47.83]Besides in college everything would be different
[00:50.79]Everyone is educated  no one would be tripping  huh
[00:54.16]He had it all figured out
[00:56.25]Plus his parents were excited
[00:57.61]Just to get him out the house
[00:59.29]So they bought him a ticket
[01:00.72]Even bought one for Roderick
[01:02.64]Said to leave the end of summer
[01:04.01]They would pay for all of it
[01:05.72]So excited on his way to work at In-N-Out
[01:07.62]
[01:08.38]End of his shift
[01:09.46]He drove straight up to Roderick's house
[01:11.60]He hopped out  saw him with his crew
[01:14.24]He walked right up  he was ready to share the news
[01:16.70]It had been a few days
[01:18.40]He forgot how much he missed him
[01:20.39]So excited that he moved in and kissed him
[01:23.30]Roderick dissed him  threw him to the floor
[01:25.95]He said  you faggot  What'd you have to do that for
[01:28.69]
[01:29.43]Looked at his homies  You know I'm not gay
[01:32.29]They just shook their heads  turned and walked away
[01:34.67]
[01:36.11]****  ****'s wrong with you
[01:38.27]Now he's screaming at Johnathan
[01:39.62]What the hell was wrong with him
[01:41.16]John said  Okay  it's over  Let's be honest then
[01:44.06]They never knew the real you  they not your real friends
[01:46.72]He drove away and vowed to never speak to him again
[01:49.32]
[01:50.95]It had been a few weeks
[01:52.29]Before John left for college
[01:54.01]He thought that they should speak
[01:55.53]Scared to do it  for fear of rejection
[01:58.35]But either way
[01:59.08]He knew the world would never accept him
[02:01.33]
[02:01.95]Dear America  when you tell gay Americans
[02:05.37]That they can't serve their country openly
[02:08.63]
[02:09.21]Or marry the person that they love
[02:11.70]You're telling that to kids too
[02:13.65]Roderick was seventeen  in and out of jail since ten
[02:16.30]Never knew his father or spent time with any other men
[02:18.91]He started running in them circles with the hustlers
[02:21.48]Gangbanging  **** slanging
[02:23.29]Had some loyal customers
[02:24.05]
[02:24.80]Locked him up at a very young age
[02:27.17]Found religion and it ended all his criminal ways
[02:30.29]He also found his first boyfriend
[02:32.28]When he was locked up
[02:33.66]Came home conflicted
[02:34.26]
[02:34.80]So he really didn't talk much
[02:36.53]
[02:37.75]Felt beginnings of a double life
[02:39.30]The chaplain back in juve used
[02:40.72]To tell him that it wasn't right
[02:42.70]
[02:43.50]His bond with God was so strong
[02:45.17]
[02:46.46]That was until he met John
[02:48.05]
[02:49.55]And it felt so perfect
[02:51.07]But suffering eternal damnation  was it worth it
[02:54.19]
[02:55.54]He still had to see him
[02:56.95]It had been two years
[02:58.20]He knew that he could never leave him
[03:00.02]
[03:03.77]So he lived in fear of God's wrath
[03:05.83]The preacher said God loves us all except fags
[03:08.50]And that made him so mad he started packing his bags
[03:11.41]Said he'd run away with John until it went all bad
[03:14.44]
[03:49.92]The big incident
[03:51.67]
[03:52.66]John slipped in front of his friends
[03:54.23]And started kissing him
[03:55.77]
[03:56.78]Now everything was different
[03:58.81]He shut him out  never thought about forgiving him
[04:01.52]
[04:02.37]Until he got that text
[04:03.76]
[04:04.38]John wanted to meet up the day after next
[04:06.94]
[04:07.59]They met at In-N-Out  on his dinner break
[04:10.17]But he was so mad
[04:11.42]That he couldn't look him in the face
[04:13.28]Soon as he spoke  they both started crying
[04:16.13]Said he missed him so much  he felt like he was dying
[04:19.53]John said  I can't describe how much I missed you
[04:22.21]
[04:23.12]That's when Roderick pulled his pistol
[04:24.54]
[04:25.91]He shot him right between the eyes
[04:27.62]Then turned it on hisself cause he refused to live a lie
[04:30.34]
[04:31.15]Suicide was against his beliefs
[04:33.24]But knew it was the only way they'd ever find peace